♥ Friday, May 2, 2008
Tear drops.
I had a really bad day yesterday.
This must have been my 1000000th time repeating the same blardy shit.
First I couldn't find my favorite belt to wear with my outfit in the morning. I practically fliped the whole house inside out. Failed.
Then I was 4 minutes late for work.
Next daddy came late to fetch me back from work and at the end I couldn't join my friends for dinner because I was superb late and they left me.
I really wanted to go for the dinner thingy! How dissapointed I was.
Tears filled up my eyes as I sat in the car on the way home.
I thought maybe I should call up my then boyfriend and ask him to go have dinner with me. I nooded to myself and was hoping he could make me feel better.
" Hey, can you come and fetch me now so that we could
go dinner together?"
"Now? No. Don't think so."
I just felt so devastated. I felt so alone to die.
Out of anger. I took the car out and drove to a restaurant and had dinner on my own. I was so pissed that I ordered all I wanted and couldn't finish them.
One of the waiter came up to me and ask, " Seorang je ke?"
I nodded silently. Gosh, I felt like crying.
When I got home I felt a tad better and decided to call the boyfriend up.
He didn't even made me feel any better.
" Don't blame me for your bad day." He said.
ouh.. it was just so mean. He even told me it was irritating to listen to all my nonsense stories.
It was probably the most hurtful thing I ever heard in my whole entire life.
Not even a word of sorry from him.
So I decided to end things once again. I'm so tired being treated the way I'm not supposed to. I'm just so tired. It was painful to leave something that has once become a part of me. I don't know. I just think I deserve better than just a piece of rotten junk.
Heres a few picture I took days ago. I attempeted to make him a card. Unfortunately everything will just go into the rubbish bin.
A cute little elephant I made to go along with the card. I picked it up and showed it to him."Look! is it cute?"
The replied I got was, " No. Not cute at all."
Maybe I was being a bit too sensitive. But his criticism was hurtful.
I cut out every single heart shape out one by one. I made sure each and every heart was the same. But obviously its for no use.
Oh well. I'm won't deny that I'm heart broken.
Every night.. I'll shut my eyes and pray for a better tomorrow.
