<♥> Tonight I celebrate my love for you

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♥ Thursday, June 28, 2007
Memories of melawati high 06

Enjoy people!

Loved at 3:23 AM

♥
Rebound.

A BIG HUMONGOUS thank you to Justin Wong for the daym layan my emo session last night.
What would I do without you??!!!
hahahaha..
Thanks for coming all the way to KLCC to teman me walk around the park till everything shuts down and the lights go off.
Thanks for sending me all the way back and thank gawd you found your way home!! hehe..
Thanks for listening to my ever so dumb and sick problem.
The only line that you said and is still stuck in my head is

" I TOLD YOU SO."

and I kept saying.

" ya ya. I know I know!"

Life.
First you thought you were in love.
Then suddenly you realise you are not.
Later on realise you can't live without the person.
Next you found out your heart was breaking.
You wake up the next morning feeling perfectly alright.
And you already have a new boyfriend.
How cool is life?
hahahhahaha..

Joanne is coming over tomorrow to stay over for a couple of days!!
Yay! Double yay! Triple yay!
Can't wait to see her. =)
muackssss..

Loved at 1:51 AM

♥ Tuesday, June 26, 2007
Shall be missed.

Nina and I

Nina. Phrav (me brother!) & me.

Most of the time, when a person walks out of your life, you just couldn't careless.

But sometimes when a special someone walks out, your heart suddenly sinks to the bottom. Walking around with a soul without a heart. EMPTY-ness fills in. Pretending everything will be fine.

" I'll do fine."

I kept telling myself. Life would be so different. Feels like I've lost part of myself. But yet, life still moves on and I'll drag myself to it. Feelings I felt when I woke up that morning, realising I can't call her anymore. I teared.

Nina left for Banting to further her studies yesterday. Yes I know Banting is just 45 minutes drive around the corner from here. But still.... The night before she left I actually made an effort to go all the way to her place at 12.30 midnight to see her for the last time. Only manage to talk to her through bars since only her maid keeps the gate keys and she is asleep. While taking to her I kept hearing myself repeating the same line

" Life is so not going to be the same again without you."

I felt tears rolling down my warm cheeks.

"Michy, are you crying? Don't cry. You making me feel like crying too."

said Nina. I shook my head... wiped off my tears and told her I'm alright with my trembling voice. If only I can beg her to stay knowing it is the closest thing to impossible.
I teared for her. I seldom cry even if it is the most painful thing on earth. Crying was never an option for me when I'm down. I find it hard to cry. I always put on a mask to show how tough I am even tho I'm feeling horrible deep under. But that night I cried.

She was the person I trusted most. She knows everything about me even my deepest and ugliest secrets. The troubles I've went through. No one knows me better than that.
Who am I going to seek for when I have problems next time? Not that I don't have any other close friends.. But not everyone makes me feel the way how Nina makes me feel. =/
No more going jogging together. No more hanging out together. No more sleeping overs. No more movies and shopping together. No more late night session on the phone. No more Korean movies. No more hearing her screaming "LEE DONG WOOK opa~~~!!!" anymore. No more.

I never thought things would actually happen so quick.
Too fast that it takes time to digest.
We are growing up too fast.. Naive as I am.. I still live in a world of innocence.
She shall be missed deeply by me. Truly.
I can only wish her all the best.

Loved at 6:27 PM

♥ Monday, June 25, 2007
Angelina Jolie wannabe.

Yes. The certain someone pissed me off last night and I slept at 4 am.
Wasted my time painting my toe nails red. =p
Woke up at 11a.m this morning.
Daddy told me to get all dolled up so that I can get my passport size photo taken. Needed them for college stuff.
And check out the out come. As usual... my passpost size photos never did and never will turn out pretty and I have no idea why!

" I think I got serious face problem la."
" You memang UGLY pon wat."
" WHAT??!! so hurtful la you."
"yea what!!! LOok.. your eyes one big and one small."
" NOt my fault okay.. I used to wear spects thats why!!!!"
"still? UGLY MEANS UGLY LA."

The meanie lil brat had to say those words.Okay. I know right honesty is the best policy.. but still???!!! Had to be so straight forward la.. THANKS LARRRR * roll eyes*

Look at my cheeks!!! So puffy.. or in other words... FAT la..
sighh.. =(

Eiiikkk.. my eyes look like the cat in SHERK.. puss in boots

This picture reflects the dumb fug look..

Okay. I'm not happy with the photo. So since it is already fugly.. I think I'll just fugly-fied it la.. The power of photoshop.. taa-daaa..
If only I can photoshop my passport photos.. I think I'll look hotter than Angelina Jolie. heh!!!

Loved at 3:43 AM

♥ Saturday, June 23, 2007
Cool age a.k.a College

I wake up every morning counting days. Soon I'll be counting hours. Then I'll be counting seconds till college starts! yikes.
The mix feeling between excited and scared. And also a tiny teaspoon full of lazy-ness as well.
No idea how am I going to cope up with my studies looking at my horrible terrible vegetable command of London.
Plus my brain is already rusty since I've not been using it for like sayy.. 6 months?
OMG. 6 months weh! If I was pregnant my baby would be born in another 3 more months!!!

Then I'll have to sleep early every night and wake up REAL early in the morning to attend classes.
Then I'll have to squeezzeeeeeee my way in to the fug-crowd-packed LRT and STAND (or if I'm lucky enuf some hawt dude might give me his seat) all the way to Bangsar ALONE to get to college. sheesshhh.. Now I seriously don't like the idea of starting college.
And oh oh.. plusssss.. Then I have to start worrying of what to wear to college.

Skirt? Pants? What colour top? what colour undies? What colour bra?

okay. just kidding. =p
Am I like over reacting huh??! I've been bugging Juney and Jolene with all these stupid questions. I bet when they read this post their reaction will be like.
*rolls eyes* "There goes again. Mich having her Psycho-attack on her college life."

Yes yes. I am immune to the reaction they give me. =D
And then I'll have to start using my brain again to Staaaa-deee !!
I have to study and start burning the midnight oil all over again.arrgghhhhh.. history is repeating by itself again..
*bangs head on wall* NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO...................
Shheessshhh...
All this college life is giving me pressure.
It is making me think.
I hate to think.. I dont like using my brain.

And the worst part is.. EVERYONE IS ALREADY HALF WAY THROUGH WHAT THEY ARE LEARNING IN COLLEGE AND IM ONLY ENROLLING SOON. bah.
Some of them are already graduating by end of this year. And I'm still lost. gah!

I so need HELP.
The best part of college is that I can go shopping for my college clothes!!!
But again. here comes the suckie part... I'M BROKE. where is the money??? =(
Such a depressing post. Pathetic.

Loved at 10:42 PM

♥ Friday, June 22, 2007

The blog is officially DEAD.
Gawd.. Someone save me a lifeeeeeeee....
I don't know what to blog about. here goes a picture from an outing.
Shheesss.. I think I better start blogging again. * I pwomise I will blog everyday.*
I shall bring my camwhore everywhere I go and start camwhoring. ngeh ngeh.

Dom and me.

Titi and me.

Justin and me.

There are some other pictures in my computer which I can't upload due to some request.

So come get your photos from me ASAP you-know-who. =)

I HAVE TWO MORE WEEKS TILL COLLEGE STARTS!!! omigosh.

I can't wait. For some stupid reason only a few people knows. hehehe.

Sales is on! Someone please bring me shopping larrr.. and provide the cash please.

*cheerssss*

Loved at 7:38 PM

♥ Monday, June 4, 2007
obey thy rule.

I know my nail looks pretty ugly along with the old fashion-look accessories.. Like some old auntie or granny. But me lurve it. I dunno why. Looks whicked.

Got back from Penang long ago. Got a few pictures of my cousin's wedding which I'm lazy to edit. Promise will post em up soon. =)

Life has been really great for me. I have exactly one month and three days to enjoy before I'm offically being send to hell a.k.a college.

I was just wondering if I should dye my hair. No. really.

Back then in high school I'll do anything and everything to break the school rule.

From long nails to multi-amount earings to skipping classes and school. Anything. Feels fun tho. Rules are meant to be broken, no? see........

But now that I'm finally out of school. I get all the freedom I want. No one cares if I wanna dye my hair purple ( okay. maybe my mom does but that one I can 'kau-tim') No one really cares if I wanna put ten thousand earings on my ear. No one cares if I want to paint my nails green.

But why am I not doing any of those? My hair is still straight and it's BLACK. My nails are long but I don't really bother to paint it until recently and even worst I don't even put on any earings on my ear any more. WHY? It doesn't make any sense. I can do anything I want but I'm not doing it. WHY? WEIRD....

Human nature. I guess? We just like to go against rules. Especially teenagers. Even their spikey hair style goes against gravity.

This is a stupid post la.

Loved at 12:53 AM