<♥> Tonight I celebrate my love for you

♥Lolipops.♥

♥ Saturday, May 31, 2008
blank. Stare cock.

I had everything planned out.
I called and messaged almost everyone I know to enquire about the price of the present I wanted to get you. I got Juney and Graeme to drive me all the way to Low Yat plaza to get the present but only to find out that I was messaging them at 2 in the morning calling the plan off. Yet they were so nice to tolerate with my indecisive mind.
I doubt if you even remember what occasion it was for.

I remembered wishing you " Happy 1st Year anniversary, dear! "
And all I got was an " Okay " as a icy cold reply.

No idea why did I even stayed so long to come to this far.

All I did was to ask you to go on a vacation with me and you made a big fuss about it and made me decide to pick between you or my friend. It all started and ended with a break up... on our 1st year anniversary day.

I apologized and tried to patch things back. But you think you were so cool and rejected me.Fine.
"Friends last forever, but lovers don't." That was what I told you. And I am sticking with my decision. At least my friends remember my birthday and they don't make me cry.

This post is so pathetic.

Loved at 8:43 PM

♥
slack.

Sorry been lacking of updates.
Slack.
Yea.. I know. *gah*

Anyway, here are the minor updates! My family and I just got back from Penang two days ago. Yada yada. I know I'm supposed to be studying for my ever-so-major exams but somehow or rather I'll end up doing things (eg: Gym la..Yamcha la..Working la.. Sleeping la.. Hungry la..Lepaking la..) to AVOID studying. Not good. I KNOW! Tell me about it, Bitch.

I wonder who is the bastard who invented the word TOMORROW.
I've been using the word too often. Way too often and its not good for health.
" I'll start studying TOMORROW larh!" .. Padahal end up lepaking the next day.hmm.. Malaysia memang boleh la!*rolls eyes*

Yesterday, after bumping into Shakira at they gym, picked the boyfriend up and drove to June's place to fetch her. The original plan was to have brunch with Juney but I kinda keluar tajuk a bit and brought boyfriend along la.

We had chicken rice at Melawati a.k.a Kaifan place. The place we used to go for lunch after school when we were 'younger'. Can someone please tell me when did the price of chicken increased ah? Like seriously?
All I ordered was a plate of chicken rice and roasted pork and it cost me 7 bucks? Walao eh. I'm not eating a whole goddamn chicken ok!
Maybe one day the price of chicken rice would be so expensive that we all will decide to rare our own chicken in our back yards. *tsk!*
fark la!

Lepak around Jusco and we were so hopelessly bored that we ended up playing "photohunt" in the arcade. Very addictive lor. We used to play that too when we were in high school! hehehehe.

Lepaked at June's place while waiting for Vern to come over. Then headed to mamak to "ber-mamak" abit. Then went over to Ampang point to play pool. I suck it pool. gah! And for the 1st time in history, the pool center suddenly had a black out. Boyfriend was being so paranoid that Juney and I will get robbed and kept insisting us to stay close together.

Okay. I damn malas adi.
Gotta run! Hope to see Juney and Graeme in the morning tomorrow!
Bitches.

Loved at 8:24 AM

♥ Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Bak Kut Teh.

' I suddenly feel so cold la.'
' Good. it means you are losing weight.'
'OMIGOSH! You serious?'
' No la. just kidding.'
-.-

nonsense.

I just feel so random.
After dropping boyfriend off for college, I took over boyfriend's car and drove to gym. After gym, fetched boyfriend and drove to Arnold's place to ajak him eat bak kut teh.
*yummy!*
Then went over to One Utama to catch a movie- 'Budget bodyguard'.
Yea.
I think that is the title of the movie. EVERYONE SHOULD GO WATCH IT! Its superb hillarious!
Been watching alot of movie lately. That explains where all my money went to and why am I so broke now. sigh.

'Are you sure you live here?'
'Yes. Why?'
'But the malay woman at the gate is wearing baju kurung.'
'Thats my mom.So?'
'Are you malay?'
'Yup.'
'Whats your malay name?'
'Amira.'
'But Michelle doesn't sound like a malay name to me.'
'Bye!' *slams car door*

Loved at 11:59 AM

♥ Wednesday, May 14, 2008
wisdom tooth won't make you wiser.

I lost a bet to Amanda the bitch.
Oh well..I have to fork 10 bucks out to give her a treat @ Starbucks.
"Bitch lor you Amanda..like that free free got starbucks to drink. cheh!"
Kekeke.

It was a beautiful Tuesday morning. I made an effort to wake up early and gave Shakira a wake up call so that we can go for our Pilates class together. She daym fail cause she only woke up after I called her the second time.

"oh my god larh! I almost died in there trying to maintain muke macho with all those poses okay!" I complained after Pilates.
Continued working out a tad in the gym until boyfriend came to pick me up about two and it wasn't too long before I started complaining again."Eh! WHAT TOOK YOU SO LONG? You know or not I spent 3 and a half hours in gym working out?!!! I've never in my entire life spent so much time in gym before okay!!"

And he just gave me a cock stare. -.-

After fetching me up we headed to the dentist@ Sungai way (we had a hard time finding the place because it was located at the most ulu-est place in PJ) because boyfriend had some gum infection causing his wisdom tooth unable to fully grow.

Yes. I tried to pose in the car.

I tried to ajak him to pose with me too but he ignored me and continued complaining. -.-"

Daym mafan lor! He was complaining so much about how hard it was to close his mouth and how difficult was it to chew his food and how hungry he was and how painful it was to talk properly.

" Eh your mouth pain also can talk and complain
so much wan ah?!"
*Ignores me and continues complaining*
" Eh! you sound like daffy duck!"

-.-"

Long story short. He has to go through some kind of surgery this Friday. Poor baby. Hope he gets well soon.

Loved at 5:50 AM

♥ Monday, May 12, 2008
xaxau.

Sorry la peps. Never camwhore lately. Dug through my photo album and decided to post up a picture of Juney and I when we were 16! Camwhoring during Mr. Chiang's add math tuition class. kekeke.

Time flies. You have totally agree with that. It feels like I was just turning sweet sixteen yesterday and now I'm 19 and running out of my teenage life!!

erk....

actually....

I don't have anything in particular to blog about.

Till then!

Loved at 6:07 AM

♥ Tuesday, May 6, 2008
about me.

He called last night at 2.30am.
We talked quite a bit. I could hear him sobbing silently through the phone as we spoke.
I was trying hard to hold back my emotions. But at the end waterworks started also lar. Fail betul.
A lot of drama went on.
After spending long hours spilling out our feelings, I finally manage to climb back to bed and tuck myself to sleep at 6 am.

Woke up at 9am. I didn't go to college thinking that it will be more productive to stay home and study for my up coming exams which also spells H.E.L.L.
Daddy manage to drop me off in the afternoon at Bangsar Village so that I could hit the gym.

I was just sitting down in a corner thinking and I realised how silly I was when I was a little girl.

I used to think that all the news report on TV were like drama series.
Mommie kept saying that everything on TV is not real and they are just stories. So I just stupidly assumed even the news were not real too. I used to imagine that if the TV station decides to cook up a story about an earthquake, they just have to press the "earthquake" button and an earthquake news will show up. I remember thinking to myself..

"How is it possible to have so many disastrous phenomena
happening around us?"

Then as I grew older.. I've began to learn about sexuality.
When I was around the age of 7.. I thought sex can only be done at night where everyone is sound asleep. "Well..in movies people always have sex at night wut!!" that's what I thought.
I used to think that couple who wants to have sex would set their alarm clock so that they can wake up on time in the middle of the night to enjoy sex.. gosh. I just can't believe how stupid I was.

Then there were a bunch of my primary school friend who came up with their own theory . According to them, in order to make a girl to get pregnant, both guy and girl have a certain dress code to follow before going to bed. (Walao. Like going to prom like that!)

The guy is suppose to wear only his shorts without his underwear and the girl is supposed to wear an over sized shirt without her bra and only her undies. So yea, by sleeping together they will end up having a baby.
And there I was.. stupidly memorizing the stupid dress code as if it was some kinda Mathematical formula. Seriously lor.. "what if I want to get pregnant next time.. must apply the formula wan."

But nowadays got new formula already.
Add the bed.
Subtract the clothes.
Divide the legs.
Multiply the babies.
Equals to 9 months of pain, 1 hour of pleasure.

Confirm get A1.

I've got a lot of stupid things on my mind when I was younger. hahaha..
I just wish things were simpler in life.

Loved at 5:38 AM

♥ Friday, May 2, 2008
Tear drops.

I had a really bad day yesterday.
This must have been my 1000000th time repeating the same blardy shit.

First I couldn't find my favorite belt to wear with my outfit in the morning. I practically fliped the whole house inside out. Failed.
Then I was 4 minutes late for work.
Next daddy came late to fetch me back from work and at the end I couldn't join my friends for dinner because I was superb late and they left me.

I really wanted to go for the dinner thingy! How dissapointed I was.
Tears filled up my eyes as I sat in the car on the way home.
I thought maybe I should call up my then boyfriend and ask him to go have dinner with me. I nooded to myself and was hoping he could make me feel better.

" Hey, can you come and fetch me now so that we could
go dinner together?"
"Now? No. Don't think so."

I just felt so devastated. I felt so alone to die.
Out of anger. I took the car out and drove to a restaurant and had dinner on my own. I was so pissed that I ordered all I wanted and couldn't finish them.
One of the waiter came up to me and ask, " Seorang je ke?"
I nodded silently. Gosh, I felt like crying.

When I got home I felt a tad better and decided to call the boyfriend up.
He didn't even made me feel any better.

" Don't blame me for your bad day." He said.
ouh.. it was just so mean. He even told me it was irritating to listen to all my nonsense stories.
It was probably the most hurtful thing I ever heard in my whole entire life.
Not even a word of sorry from him.

So I decided to end things once again. I'm so tired being treated the way I'm not supposed to. I'm just so tired. It was painful to leave something that has once become a part of me. I don't know. I just think I deserve better than just a piece of rotten junk.

Heres a few picture I took days ago. I attempeted to make him a card. Unfortunately everything will just go into the rubbish bin.

A cute little elephant I made to go along with the card. I picked it up and showed it to him."Look! is it cute?"
The replied I got was, " No. Not cute at all."

Maybe I was being a bit too sensitive. But his criticism was hurtful.

I cut out every single heart shape out one by one. I made sure each and every heart was the same. But obviously its for no use.

Oh well. I'm won't deny that I'm heart broken.
Every night.. I'll shut my eyes and pray for a better tomorrow.

Loved at 2:06 AM