<♥> Tonight I celebrate my love for you

♥Lolipops.♥

♥ Monday, July 30, 2007
pointless.

Yes. We finally broke up.
Happy everyone?
No doubt. Something eveyone been wanting to witness so much huh?
Good for you.
Your dreams finally came true.
I'm out of here.
Don't lecture me anymore. I had more than enough.

Loved at 4:43 AM

♥ Sunday, July 29, 2007
Brain storm.

It is 4.03 in the morning. Am supposed to finish up my law homework bout my brain just don't want to cooperate.. Each time I stop to think.. thousand of thoughts come rushing into my mind interrupting my concentration.

After what Jolene told me the other night, she made me think even more.

Hakim made me think too.

Thinking of June and Vern makes me think.

Nina makes me think too...

No one seems to agree with what I'm doing except myself. No wait. I don't agree with myself either.

Justin and Joanne constatntly asking if I'm doing alright. YES I AM ALRIGHT, dears.

Collegemates always asking if I need help. NO I don't need any YET.

Give me time. I'll end the game soon.

I'm growing up too fast. I need to give myself a break.

My lil sister and me.

Uv nation. I smoke. I'm trying to quit. I hope.

At maison. We had fun. I woke up the next morning feeling stupid.
Friends.
Putra and me. I used to date him and walked away without a word. Now I feel bad. I'm sorry.
Juney and me. You said everything seems fine to you. To me, deep under, everything just doesnt feel the same like it used to. Or is it just me?

An old picture I found. Me in pink. I was only 15 then. Life was simple and I was still innocent. I miss those times. =/ Everyone look so young in the pic!

P/s : I finally took off my navel piercing. I'm letting the piercing close because my body is rejecting the foreign object causing the layer of skin to get thinner. WTF. after so long... now only the body rejecting it. Gonna repierce soon tho.

need to hit the bed now! ciaoz.

Loved at 12:36 PM

♥ Saturday, July 28, 2007
Free parking.

I'm down with a slight fever a terrible cough.

I *cough* and *cough* every hour every minute every second every time.. sometimes I feel like I cough more than i breath man!!!!!
My throat itches BIG TIME.. hmmmm.. I feel like stuffing my fingers down and start scratching it violently!! geezzzzz....
Thank gawd I'm much better now. =) except for the extreme-bitchy-cough driving me half nuts. *gives a bitchy eye roll*

Went for movies with the bf and 2 of his other guy friends yesterday. The Simpsons Movie was definitely a BLAST. I was laughing so hard until I fart. okay lar okay lar.. I lied about the farting part larh!
BUT SERIOUSLY. Go catch it. Its seriously ridiculously hilarious. hehehehehehehehehe.

AND SOOOOOOOOooooooooooooooooooooo... after the movies and dinner. We headed to the autopay station to pay the car parking ticket.

The ticket was with me. RIGHT. with me... errrkkk..

I think?

So I stood in front of the machine going through my BIG humongous bag searching for the ticket. I know BIG bags are the current 'IN THANG' but not a very good idea to have them around!!!! My stuff always gets in and can't find its way out.. *oh jebus*

The bf got a bit furious when I told him I couldn't find the ticket. Walked over to the car and started searching inside out.
Results : MISSING.
woooppssieee.. my bad. I think I lost it... tee-hee =)
The bf's doesn't look too happy tho. So I decided to shut up.
Yalar. Takkan wanna pay 20 bux fine for that piece of paper like ticket kan?

So we got in the car. Drove all the way to the parking entrance where the machine to eject the ticket was. Walked over to the idotic machine and tried to eject a ticket out.
Results : FAILED.
Babi. *spider pig.. spider pig*
Because you need a car so that the censor will work thus a ticket comes out. We tried everything including the touch'n'go. Still useless.

And we all finally came to the final most desperate yet brilliant idea. TO LIFT THE BAR UP.
Oh you know.. the bar lifts up when you insert the ticket into the machine before exit? yea. that batang thingy.. The friend lifted the bar up as the bf tried to drive under it.
Thank gawd his car was low enough to get through. Luckily no guards were around to catch us with our jackie-chan like act. If kena caught on CCTV pun mampos la. not like they can do anything right? D-urh. we buzzed off ASAP larrr...

So yea. end of story. We got out of the car park without having to pay for parking fee and the missing ticket. How cool. The fun and thrill. =) Moral of the story.. Next time if you lost your tix.. don't panic.. try driving under the bar. Might get you out for free too =p

Loved at 8:19 PM

♥ Tuesday, July 24, 2007
I'm ok.

Right. Pictures of my healing blue blacks. Violent. Mind you, I still have more all over my body. *ngeh*

Parents found out bout the blue blacks yesterday. The threw thousand and one question bout the blue blacks which almost drown me.. And I just ran into my room and pretend to sleep to avoid being questioned and lectured.

"I'm perfectly alright."

Words that I've been repeating since almost everyone I know been asking whats wrong with me. Don't I look fine to you? huh? huh? And please please please don't give me that pityful mercyful stare.

I skipped college again today. FOR A GOOD REASON THOUGH. I went for my driving test larhhhh... Which I would like to proudly announce that I'VE PASSED... wheeeeeeeee.. finally can drive legally!!!!!

-sorry. not in the mood to blog-

Love ya guys. I miss my friends. Lets have a get together party. PLEASE.

Loved at 8:46 AM

♥ Sunday, July 22, 2007
Neglected.

It is 2.32am.
Here I am sitting alone wondering what have I got myself into.
College started 2 weeks ago. I'm not coping well.
I've already skipped 2 classes so far. Not finishing my homework. And trying hard to understand whats going on in class.
Daddy is not happy with me. He doesn't show much. But I know.
Mommy is too pissed at me to even care less.
Even my friends aren't happy at me with what I'm doing now.
I leave for college as early at 7 in the morning and coming back only at 12 midnight.
I've got bruises and blue blacks all over my body.
I go out everyday neglecting my studies, family and friends.
Sometimes I don't even get to see mommy for days even when we live under the same roof.
I want to hang out badly with my friends. But someone is stopping me.
Why do I let him control me? Exactly.I don't want to. I have my own life.
But at the end of the day, He wins.
I thought it was a fling. But now its a wee too late to turn back and walk away.
I know it is not worth it. Yet I find it hard to pull myself altogether and let go.
I've got too attached.
He puts me into deep shit. Creating troubles for me to drown in.
I want to get back on track. Lead life the way I used to. Hanging out with friends and start studying again.
I know I'm wrong. Please forgive me.

Loved at 11:32 AM

♥ Monday, July 2, 2007
Screaming pregnancy

Few days ago, Joanne came over to my place to sleepover. Joanne, incase anyone out there who still has this BIG question mark over their head wondering who this chick is, she is my bestie I met during my 3 months stay at Bandar Muadzam Shah for my National Service.

She had a 3 days and 2 nights stay at my place. And thanks to her I felt much better. No more lonely nights while my mood swings terribly. =) We even went to Hartamas to meet up with Justin Ng!! I miss justin already.

Anyway.. few days ago I remembered sending Justin Wong ( aiyayay! too many Justins around. confusing piece of shit.) an SMS telling him I feel like getting pregnant. And I even told Justin Ng that I felt pregnant the other day. PREGNANT. And I thought I was having a psycho case attack thinking I'm the only weirdo wanting to get pregnant for the fun of it. *ngeh*

So one morning, Joanne was lying next to me in bed chit-chatting. Suddenly the PREGNANT topic came into mind. And Joanne was the one started it off 1st!!

"eh, I feel like getting pregnant."

I stoned for a moment. Come again? Rewind.
" I feel like getting pregnant." That was what she said.
HOLLY MOLLY. goodness gracious. She is so my gang! Welcome to the club baybeh!!!!

"yeah! me too!!! OMG OMG OMG."
I screamed.

Guess what Joanne started doing? She pulled up the blanket and rolled it into a form of a round ball and started stuffing into her baby-tee.
I got all excited.
"hang on hang on! lemme go get the camera~!"

hahahahahahahahaha..
and taa-daaaaa.. we look like this IF WE EVER GET PREGNANT larrrrr.

Joanne look so like a pregnant mommy. PASSED. She has the style of it.

But look at me. I failed kaw kaw man. No style. Look at the weird shape of my artificial tummy. Confirmed not a good pregnant mother. FAILED.

Loved at 11:06 PM