♥ Friday, October 12, 2007
A broken Heart with Love
I've been posting a whole lot of chin peng gang of emo post. I'm getting tired of it.
But nevertheless..
here comes another one. =/
The nightmare I feared most finally came through.
The moment I gave up everything I had around me and gave my heart away.. withthin days it was already broken into god knows how many zillion pieces.
I cried in college right after I hung up the phone.
*thanks manda for being there for me*
I cried in the car while Hakim was talking to me.
" seee.. that is where you stand in his heart. You are not important."
" uhuh."
*Hakim turns and look at me*
"OMG michelle. are you crying?"
"Must be my contact lens. I'm perfectly alright."
I lied as I tried to hide my trembling voice.
I reached home and ran into my room to.
I thought a warm bath would make me fine but instead I ended up crying in the shower.
Hid in my room and cried all day long. I was so tired of crying that I accidentally fell asleep.
When I woke up it was already evening.
My eyes were so swollen. I could hardly open my eyes.
I was hoping he would at least call to apologize.
Nil.
no news. Nothing.
I've called more than 10 times. No one picked up.
I called again this morning. No answer.
oh well. I should have trusted my instinct in the 1st place.
I am to be blame for the pain I asked for. =)
I ♥ you. But you made me feel like a nobody. Do u know what it feels like loving someone that’s in a rush to throw u away?