
Ever felt so lost before? So numb.
So broken that you don't know what to do.
The pain stings so badly. No medicine to cure.
Smoking is an option.
Smoked a few sticks but the relief was temporarily. Useless..
Crying comes into mind.
" I'll cry. Cry myself to sleep. Might feel better."
But tears just wouldn't flow. Painful no matter how much I force.
"Admit it, you are attached to him, right?"
As what June said.
I depend too much on him. I told her.
I woke up in the morning seeing the perfect sky is torn. Not pretty.
I told myself I wouldn't miss it all that much.
I hated his attitude so much. Breaking promises was his tradition.
So I asked for the break.
I wanted it all even when he begged me to stay.
I got it all.But I'm still not okay.
I want to leave yet I want things to be the same.
I want him to stay. With a better attitude.
" I promise I will change for you."
It sounded sweet at first until he broke the promise.
Ugly. So ugly.
He doesn't seem to care. He told me he will call me back tonight.
I'm waiting for the phone to ring. Get things straight. Get over it. =)
P/s: Hey Justin. In case you are reading. I knew you were right from the beginning. I shouldn't have gotten myself into this. But I was too stubborn. I'll take responsible for myself. On my own.