<♥> Tonight I celebrate my love for you

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♥ Tuesday, August 28, 2007
Lost.

Ever felt so lost before? So numb.

So broken that you don't know what to do.

The pain stings so badly. No medicine to cure.

Smoking is an option.

Smoked a few sticks but the relief was temporarily. Useless..

Crying comes into mind.

" I'll cry. Cry myself to sleep. Might feel better."

But tears just wouldn't flow. Painful no matter how much I force.

"Admit it, you are attached to him, right?"

As what June said.

I depend too much on him. I told her.

I woke up in the morning seeing the perfect sky is torn. Not pretty.

I told myself I wouldn't miss it all that much.

I hated his attitude so much. Breaking promises was his tradition.

So I asked for the break.

I wanted it all even when he begged me to stay.

I got it all.But I'm still not okay.

I want to leave yet I want things to be the same.

I want him to stay. With a better attitude.

" I promise I will change for you."

It sounded sweet at first until he broke the promise.

Ugly. So ugly.

He doesn't seem to care. He told me he will call me back tonight.

I'm waiting for the phone to ring. Get things straight. Get over it. =)

P/s: Hey Justin. In case you are reading. I knew you were right from the beginning. I shouldn't have gotten myself into this. But I was too stubborn. I'll take responsible for myself. On my own.

Loved at 8:26 AM

♥ Saturday, August 25, 2007
Catching up.

Each time I sign into blogger to blog about something.. I will somehow, somewhat close the page without finishing up my post.. ask me why!!! ask me why!! d-urh. malas-ness larh!... wakakkaka..

-.-"

okay okay... I know I know. the lameness is so sky high it is already poking god's butt..

Serious now.
I've been a good girl for the past 5 days. Spending most of the time at home and catching up with some old school friends and coming home before the sky turns dark.
Big achievement I should say. *pats own self*
Went to Mid Valley on Friday with Lam, Swee, Alvin, Poh Yei and my sis.
Hung out at Chillis all way through. I have no idea why they came up with such brilliant idea to go all the way there to hang out padahal KLCC oso got chilli's right? and and.... we wasted like half an hour to find a gawd daym parking lot!!!!.. I'm not complaining.. just telling =)
I had a great laugh and a holly-licious great time!
On the way back, We met an accident when the car Alvin drove hit into some old Chinese ah pek uncle motorcyclist.
WAS HIS FAULT. not Alvin's! NOT ALVIN'S I TELL YOU!!
*your welcome Alvin..just in case you wanna thank me for covering line for you.. wakakkaka =p*
Oh, btw. The old uncle owns a fugly bitchy wife. damn random. I know. SHE STUFFED WORDS I DIDN'T SAY INTO MY MOUTH. mahai!
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Spend some quality time with my family yesterday.. It is just something that I've not been doing for quite a long time. In fact I can't even remember when was the last time we all went out together on an outing as a whole family without quarreling. ngeh.... Sungei Wang was where we all ended up.. =)

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I woke up early this morning.
And started doing my own laundry. YES I KNOW!!

MY OWN LAUNDRY!!!!!

Someone should really go buy lottery today. Confirm strike 1st prize!! either that or the world is about to come to an end...
Mommie woke up and stared at me in amazed when she saw me scrubbing my clothes in the toilet.

" wahh. why so rajin today?"
" Where got? Wash own clothes oso wrong meh?"
" Why? going out later izzit?"
" No ark.."
"Don't lie.. confirm going out later."
" Seriously. I'm not going out larh!"
"Why? how come you not going out anymore?"
" What why?!! Why are you encouraging me to go out?!"

Seeeeeee.. which mom will actually encourage their daughter to go out?! I have a cool mom.
Mommie was actually surprised because I've not been going out. =) Even she couldn't believe her own eyes....
Don't ask me why the sudden change in me.
I guess I died yesterday and met god and he told me to get a life.
I think he told me that

" Illusion will never change into reality."

Loved at 8:02 PM

♥ Friday, August 17, 2007
Drink drank drunk.

So it was yesterday that I had a terrible hangover. Reuben's parents were enjoying themselves in London and the blardy bastard son decided to throw a drinking party so that everyone could crash his house. haha..
I don't remember what exactly happened. Here are some picture I took while I was sober.

Reuben and me.

Me and Alexis Eevon.

The bunch of guy. There are more people around but I just couldn't bother taking more picture. ;p

June and Vern came along later as well.

Poser. "take my picture! take my picture!".

I woke up this morning finding myself in Reuben's room alone. What the fuck?! I couldn't even remember anything. I tried hard to open my eyes and could feel the burning sensation because I wore my contact lens to sleep. Laid on the bed for a bit trying to recall back what happened. Remembered Brian dragging me out of the room and shoving 2 cups of lime juice into my mouth to sober me up. I remembered June screaming at me as if I'm insane while I was drunk.

" Michelle, I don't want to to wake up next morning calling me saying that you regret everything!!!"
" June, I swear to god I will not call you! I swear I will not call you!!"

Vern gave me that what-ever-mitch-you-are-so-fucked-up look.

I still remember my words while I was drunk. not bad not bad. *pats own self*

Finally decided to pull myself up and walk downstairs where Terry and the rest were sleeping.

While walking to Thurkahs for breakie.. Terry suddenly poped the question..

Are you sure you can't remember anything happened last night?
Errkk.. I can't.. what happened last night?
...................... forget bout it. =.="
oh okay.
ARE YOU SURE YOU CAN'T REMEMBER ANYTHING?
Of course I do remember abit larh. Please don't remind or tell me about it. I don't want to know!!!

And oh people. I'm perfectly alright la. Don't worry.

And I baru kena kaw a lecture from Eevon telling me to control my drinking and control my love. -.-"

Loved at 11:54 PM

♥ Monday, August 6, 2007
mommie wannabe.

I had a surprise call from the girl I expected least to call.
Tsing Hsieh.
Was talking over the phone with her and suddenly the pregnancy conversation strikes.
We went on and on for hours talking about pregnancy.

Okay... not like anyone of us wants to or is going to get pregnant.. at least not right now.....
But seriously...
Sometimes shits just happens, no?
Things are hard to say and accident may occur anytime.
Imagine one day waking up realising you missed your monthly period.
Bought a pregnancy test kit. Tested and results were positive!!!
OMG. You tell me what to do?!!!!
Abortion might be the best option but it is against the religion.. to hell you go!
What if I chose to keep the baby? Yes. It might be the most noble thing to do.
But again.. aren't we all too young to accept the responsibilities and burden? We are incapable of supporting the baby...
If you tell me to give birth to the baby and then give the baby up for an adoption. I find it cruel. It is like throwing your own flesh and blood away. No difference from abortion. Running away from responsibilities. Tsk tsk, not the wisest thing to do.

What choice do we have?

Okay. I've been thinking too much. Tsing Hsieh made the both of us think too much and started freaking each other out.. hahahhaa..
Prevention is better than cure.

Loved at 9:01 AM

♥ Saturday, August 4, 2007
Typical Saturday.

Lil Jasmine and me.

Went to OU again with the bf , KC and some guy Idontknowwho.
I can't believe I watched THE SIMPSONS MOVIE twice.walao eh.. waste my time only..
Finally bought the hoodie I wanted so badly from Zara! =) =) =)
Hung out at the bf's place for a bit before dropping me off at Steven's corner for yamcha session with Jolene, Choo and Graeme.

What a pity June couldn't come along.
OMG. I'm eating like a pig lately man. I ate a plate whole humongous plate of nasik lemak with ayam goreng all by myself.. later on...

" eh.. I feel like eating roti tisu. Come lets order? we share ok?"
" No no.. nevermind.. we are all too full.. you eat yourself."
" maybe I shouldn't order.. later kenot finish.."

................... but i feel like eatinggg ...........

"aiyar! kenot tahan already. order for me please!!" =.="

Graeme and me.

The bugger refused to take photo. Note the wallet covering half his face.

Not a good day for him to take photo it seems. heh!

Jolene and choo.

And I ended up finishing the whole roti tisu all by myself. Call me a pig. I'm so proud of myself. Sheessshhh....

Loved at 9:04 PM

♥ Friday, August 3, 2007
Big deal.

Lalalalalalalalalalalalalala......
I'm feeling rather happy today. For a silly reason of course.
Yalar yalar I know... I've been over reacting... Telling almost the whole world about it!!!!
*ngeh ngeh*

What to do. first timer mah.. a bit of the jakun-ness.. =p
So. I made a big deal out of it. D-urhh...
Guess what?! guess what?!!

I DROVE TODAY!!!!!

ON THE HIGHWAY!!!! FROM MENTAKAB ALL THE WAY BACK TO BENTONG!

oh.. anyway.. Mentakab is this superb-ulu-tiny-micro-little town in Pahang. I seriously have no idea how people over there survived without a shopping mall or even a cinema.
For real! The nearest mall and cinema is in Kuantan which is about 45 minutes drive from there. =.=" . I'll definitely die.

Went there with the bf to fetch his friend, KC back to the great city of Kuala Lumpur.
The bf was superb tired since he didn't sleep for the past two days. Idiot.

' How come never sleep?'
' Busy playing dota then CS. Game more important mah!!'

O.o righhtttttt..

The bf almost got all of us killed because he almost dose off while he was on the wheel causing the car to go out the road before I screamed then it got back on track!! That is it! Let Michelle the hero save the day!!! hehehehehe...

"Please let me drive.. please please!!! I don't
want you to get all of us killed."
" No! YOU will get all of us
killed."
"Please please please... I promise to drive slow..
plus you are too tired to drive."
After much persuading from me he finally gave in. YAY! double yay! triple yay!
P/s: His friend still doesn't own a driving licence so I was the only one who can drive legally! =)

So I got on the wheels. Put in the 1st gear and started driving.
And suddenly.. I stopped the car.

"errrkkk.. sorry ah.. forgot to adjust the back
mirror." =.="
" WHAT?!! confirm we are all going to die. We'll
never make it to get home alive.."

=.="

First timer mah!!! I haven't drive since I got my licence last week ok!!
And the worst part is....
I WAS ONLY ALLOWED TO DRIVE AT 80KM/HOUR.

" Why??!!! 80 is too slow larrr.."
" no no.. You'll get all of us killed if you drive too
fast."
" NO I DON'T!! " *shove a cock stare*

So I just decided to just shaddap and drive. I did try to increase my speed whenever the bf wasn't looking. But always kena kantoi then kena sound. The most heartbreaking part is to see big fat buses over taking me. I mean.. buses are slow enough already right? Now they can even over take me!! That was how SLOWWWWWWWW I was driving.. real memalu-fyingkan man!

"eh.. so malu la. buses oso can over take me."
" So? I'm not the one driving oso."
" fucker. daym evil larh you!!!"

Somehow I can constantly hear KC throwing a bitch scream from the back. I bet he was holding his heart in his hand all the way when I drove.

"eh Dom! Don't kacau her! I don't want to die
weh!!"

seee.. I feel insulted ok.. not like there were any cars around for me to bang also! The road was FREAKING EMPTY larrrr.. unless I bang the rocks and trees la whichI doubt.
hehehhe.... Aiyar.. only manage to drive till Bentong la. Still??!! was a big achievement for me ok!!! =) *smiles from ear to ear*

And we made it home alive!!! taa-daaaa..See.. my driving skills weren't that bad after all.. We survived to see day light again. =p Can't wait to drive again!!!

Loved at 9:24 AM

♥ Wednesday, August 1, 2007
Bulu-less guy.

After a BIG DRAMATIC FIGHT along with a few punches and tight slaps with the idiotic loser bf, we then decided to chill a bit at a mamak shop in ss2 for supper.
Suddenly,

'Eh.. you touch my legs and see..'
*Gives a cock stare*
' For what?!!!... Don't la act gay.. please la hor...'
' NO seriously.. TOUCH AND SEE 1st...'
*streches out his beautiful million dollar white leg*
' okay lar okay lar.. sure ber-bulu giler.'
*touches his leg*

O.o''

'WHAT THE FUCK?! ...................YOU SHAVE YOUR LEGS AH??!!! OMG.'
'nice leh?' *winks*
' OH MY FUCKING GAWD. YOU ARE DAYM GAY MAN.. DAYM GAY.. don't you ever dare touch me again.. you so GAY!!!!'

Yucks! I thought only girls shave or wax their legs! I didn't know guys shave their legs too.. seriously!!!! so gay man! so gay!!! I mean.. guys shaving their armpit is already bad enough let alone shaving legs!!

' I daym like my legs now. It is so fair and smooth.'
' OMG. please la.. stop touching you legs man..'

I nearly fainted for real!!! no kidding.. -.-" that sentence confirm is gay. Those words were actually coming out from his mouth!

' WTF. why on god's green earth you shave your legs for larh?!!' *blinking hard trying to believe*
'Dunno.. for fun la.. the weather was too hot so I decided to shave off my leg hair to feel a bit cooler.'
'WTF. like that oso can ah? then why don't you shave your armpit and hands too la.. might be even more cooler.. eiyerrrr'

*speechless*

Loved at 7:57 AM