♥ Sunday, July 22, 2007
Neglected.
It is 2.32am.
Here I am sitting alone wondering what have I got myself into.
College started 2 weeks ago. I'm not coping well.
I've already skipped 2 classes so far. Not finishing my homework. And trying hard to understand whats going on in class.
Daddy is not happy with me. He doesn't show much. But I know.
Mommy is too pissed at me to even care less.
Even my friends aren't happy at me with what I'm doing now.
I leave for college as early at 7 in the morning and coming back only at 12 midnight.
I've got bruises and blue blacks all over my body.
I go out everyday neglecting my studies, family and friends.
Sometimes I don't even get to see mommy for days even when we live under the same roof.
I want to hang out badly with my friends. But someone is stopping me.
Why do I let him control me? Exactly.I don't want to. I have my own life.
But at the end of the day, He wins.
I thought it was a fling. But now its a wee too late to turn back and walk away.
I know it is not worth it. Yet I find it hard to pull myself altogether and let go.
I've got too attached.
He puts me into deep shit. Creating troubles for me to drown in.
I want to get back on track. Lead life the way I used to. Hanging out with friends and start studying again.
I know I'm wrong. Please forgive me.